Looking Ahead – 2009
December 29, 2008
I have been trying to put some serious thought into what I wanted to accomplish in the new year that is going to dawn on us soon in between bouts of the flu and feeling like absolute crap. In the recent years I have not made any serious goals or plans or New Year’s Resolutions because I have felt as if there wasn’t any use in it, because I have felt so defeated for so long. I don’t want to continue this way of thinking and looking at my future, so I am making plans to change and am trying to think of goals I do want to achieve for 2009.
In the past the only goal I actually almost set was of writing more, submitting my work, and trying to be published. For 2009 I want to continue to be employed – this is one of my biggest goals; to be as healthy as I can be; and to be as happy, for myself, as I can possibly be. The writing? I want to write and submit at least one piece for 2009, a long piece. A novel. I am going to be serious about it, and do it.
These things I am looking at are all for myself. They have nothing to do with DH at all, really. This year I am actually going to center around me, and encourage myself to be happy and as successful as possible. Hopefully, if I am more content in myself, his tricks and fussing and cut downs won’t affect me as much as they would otherwise. I am even going to let myself hope, for once; I am going to hope for the best and believe it can and will happen.
Keeping positive is going to be the hard part. I am going to try and find positive reinforcements to help me keep all of this going and not stopping. I understand it is going to start off well, probably great, then get harder as the year progresses, and there will be hard spots to over-come. Since I am going to be employed I am going to try my best and get some good subliminal CDs. There is more planned, but I am being ushered off to bed.
